Okay, I certainly got off track with this. But, I'm going to make an effort to start up again.

• Met with my therapist and gave space to working through the breakup trauma.
• Neighbor reached out to me and is a great source of support.
• Took a bike ride to a coffee shop and ran into a friend. It made me feel not so alone - like people are out there if I just go. And it felt good to get a little exercise.
• I'm proud of myself for having not contacted Jerry and for having not let myself be treated badly anymore!
  

• Acupuncture
• Massage
• Facial
• Friends
  

• Jerry is making a lot of effort to treat me better, and it really shows. He spoke with his mother yesterday about issues she's having with Jerry's dad, and Jerry sort of spoke about me as a role model in these regards.
• Jerry took me out for sushi yesterday; ah filled a big craving!
• Spent Friday at this incredible spa for Jerry's birthday - got a couple's massage, hung out in a eucaplytus steam room, hot tub, incedible dinner, ah it was great!
• I'm typing on my new computer! The screen is super big.
• I'm almost done with my paper that's due tomorrow.

• Went for a gorgeous hike yesterday; its feels good to get exercise and be outside.
• One of my team members said something really nice to me - John said: You've been on this project for 2 years now; of course your name should be on the publications.
• My garden has grown to look incredible - lots of fresh herbs.
• Jerry and I had the most amazing time in bed last night - things are improving!!!! He held me really tight at a couple of points, and it just made me really feel loved.
  

• The power came back on
• I have a lot of candles
• That I have my dog to keep me company
• That my committee is so positive about my work

1. New blinds - and they're electric. So cool! I just press a button and these unreachable blinds open and close. I haven't made use of those windows the whole time I've been here. And now I sleep better because its darker in my bedroom.
2. Taking time off to take care of myself - necessary because I've been sick, but its felt good to just lie around for a few days snuggling with my dog.
3. Jerry's been taking care of me. It feels good.
4. My sister called me to offer to share some of what my dad is giving her. She never shares; this was very oddly unselfish of her.
5. Couldn't get out to get food? Well, Thai food delivered! Ah, it was expensive, but it'll feed me for days until I'm up to going to the grocery store again.
6. Finally found some decent kosher pickles last week at Smart and Final. Ah good Jewish pickles, how I've missed you.
7. I'm starting to feel better. What a relief! You never know how long you'll be sick when you get sick, and I'm glad that I'm finally starting to feel better. I actually think that the cold meds that Jerry brought me helped - even though my father would seriously not approve.
8. I haven't spoken to my father much this week - and it feels good to have the space from him. I think I need this.
9. My dog was SO sweet about me being sick - she would just deal with not having her normal walks and snuggled up to me constantly.
   

1. Family gatherings
2. Passover - probably my favorite holiday
3. Affection from my neice and nephew
4. Opportunity to spend time with Mom
5. The authority that I have within my family now to be able to make things better when needed